It’s not that I’m being ungrateful for your suggestions, on the contrary I am touched and very grateful that you thought of me and offered support. My apparent lack of willingness to take on these suggestions comes not from not wanting to help myself but just from the fact that over the last ten years I have tried so many things, including the things you suggested and they just don’t work. The most they can offer is maybe more effective illness management. This illness takes so much away…